Need to get that fixed. Old fears are creeping in. Anger, resentment as to why my life has not turned out as I desired. Fear of living alone and also dying alone. Who will care for me when I get older and sicker. Poor choices I've made...bla bla bla. What happened to that high energy, life-loving, happy girl I left behind at college? Is she gone for good?
Tomorrow is payroll day at work. not difficult, just tedious. i am so buried and in over my head at work. i walk in every day not knowing where/how to start, what to do first. i waste a lot of time that way.
My health is totally out of control and my doc is ready to "fire" me. I am not managing life or myself and things very well. I guess getting a good night of sleep might help so I will sign off now. I pray for the strong desire to care for myself.
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